Thursday, January 11, 2007

I can't take it

Thanks for all the well wishes. We’re going to need some more. I need to decompress, but the very short version is both babies have cysts on their brains. Called choroids plexus cysts. Lots in Baby A, not so much in Baby B. Anyway, these cysts are soft markers for Trisomy 18 and 21 and Downs and all sorts of other chromosomal abnormalities.

I spent most of the time with the genetic counselor trying not to cry, and now I am so fucking angry. We go in for amnio tomorrow morning. We are getting FISH done as well, which apparently will give us a little peace of mind or major panic in about four days. Then amnio results in at most two weeks. I guess I have lots of googling to do.

Bizarre since our stupid nuchal fold was so great and our blood test gave such great results. And I thought this was going to be a better year. Now I am just so scared. And mad. And fucking crying again.

And they are girls.

7 comments:

Carey said...

Oh no... I am so, so, so sorry today's u/s went the way it did. All of you are in our thoughts.

lagiulia said...

Hi, I don't want to tell you not to worry (impossible!), but one of my twins had bilateral choroids plexus cysts, and nothing came of it. He even had an mri at 6 mo., and they could barely see it anymore. They said he didn't even need a follow-up. This is scary, but most of the time these cysts mean nothing. It is a relatively common finding. Did baby A have other markers for either trisomy when they took the u/s measurements and heart? That would be more of a concern. But if not, and if the nuchal was good, it is very possible that everything is just fine. What did the counselor say about it? I am so, so sorry you have to go through this. Truly. Here is a website with lots of information and forums: http://choroidplexuscyst.org/
Also email me if you want to "talk" at jbhovis@hotmail.com

bri said...

Oh motherfucking crap from hell. This is seriously the last thing on earth you need. Oh, honey. I wouldn't normally know what to say and would start googling, but that's my friend Julie right above me here and I know her babies well and they are lovely so now I am going to be super hopeful for you that yours are, too. Throwing all my best wishes into this for you. Oh, hon. I know you must be so freaking out. Let me know if I can do anything - food, etc. I don't know. Just know I am thinking of you tonight and we will all be here to help you get through the next hideous waits for information. Oh, crap, hon. I am sorry this is going so crappily. Fuck.

Momai said...

I'm currently 26 weeks pregnant, and we had similar results show up on our 19 week ultrasound. It sounds like your doctor didn't mention that in most cases, the babies with these are born perfectly healthy, with no ill effects. Do look around online, I'm sure you'll find much more reassurance there than cause for more concern. In our case, since the rest of the u/s looked perfectly normal, they said we had very little to worry about. I hope it's the same for you, and that all our babies are born healthy!

art-sweet said...

Oh scary scary scary.

I am hoping one day you will show your beautiful daughters these u/s pix and say "see - you've been causing me stress from the very beginning!"

In the meantime though, I am crossing everything for you.

whatthef*ck said...

jesus christ-thank god for those comments because i was about to freak from what you wrote. sounds like there's a good chance things will be fine. obviously still a bigfat nightmare to be going through this at all but thank god it doesn't necessarily mean soemthing is wrong. of course, i would be wigging out. i mean i am wigging half the time anyway without even getting any funky news. u/s tomorrow, FISH in 4 days. argh.

what did the counselor say about the chances of this turning out to be nothing?

two girls?!! what amazing news and completely overshadowed by terror. okay so when this turns out to be nothing you'll have lots more gray hair and two daughters on the way. that is some shit to go from no kids to two kids just like that. and two girls no less. i'm sure you feel like it's extremely uncertain if they will be arriving at all but that's why you have us, that is to think positicely on your behalf.

fingers crossed, edge of my seat here.

kim said...

First of all, congrats on two girls...that's wonderful. Secondly, I can't begin to know the fear you are feeling but a preliminary search did tell me the same that a lot have already told you -- most often these things resolve themselves and the babies are completely healthy. I know that provides little comfort right now, but hopefully the amnio will help in that matter...

Hang in there...Best wishes on the amnio...