tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-988962265617663341.post6311203859463308856..comments2023-11-05T03:47:33.710-05:00Comments on Arcane Matters: Secrets and Lies and Pronouns**Jenniferhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01233972102418274980noreply@blogger.comBlogger74125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-988962265617663341.post-17638037848700308102008-02-07T21:20:00.000-05:002008-02-07T21:20:00.000-05:00There are times I just want to leave and go somewh...There are times I just want to leave and go somewhere where no one knows me and start a new life.I am tired of being a wife and mom at times and just want to be just me.Does my wife know I feel like this no. I feel unfulfilled in our sex life too. I am good and she well lets just say I feel like I am left hanging alot to finish on my own. That sucks more than anything.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-988962265617663341.post-23376714813427969522008-02-06T10:57:00.000-05:002008-02-06T10:57:00.000-05:00I'm following up my previous comment. Pretty sure...I'm following up my previous comment. Pretty sure I'm pregnant! I say pretty sure because today is day 29 of a normally 26-29 day cycle. I have had hCG boosts and that might have skewed results. However, the lines are getting darker not lighter, and I had very scant implantation bleeding on day 24(10dpo). Clinic will not do a beta until Friday to ensure all of the hCG from the boost is out of my system. ARGH!!Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-988962265617663341.post-51769223706047516522008-02-04T20:46:00.000-05:002008-02-04T20:46:00.000-05:00I read a lot of different blogs, and there is one ...I read a lot of different blogs, and there is one in particular that I love. This blogger has had a rough year. I just want to hug her until I can't hug her anymore, and the snuggle with her.<BR/><BR/>Sometimes I fantasize about moving off to Kansas City and leaving my life to be with her.<BR/><BR/>I am so crazy.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-988962265617663341.post-83900717614023401522008-02-04T16:13:00.000-05:002008-02-04T16:13:00.000-05:00My partner and I have been together for 7 years, w...My partner and I have been together for 7 years, we haven't had sex in almost 3 years. She wants to, I don't. I love her very much but I have absolutely no sexual desire whatsoever. NONE. I'm thankful that she stuck around, but I'm worried about our future. I don't know how to turn on my libido.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-988962265617663341.post-70358030132346673602008-02-04T16:08:00.000-05:002008-02-04T16:08:00.000-05:00my partner (who I love dearly) is overweight and i...my partner (who I love dearly) is overweight and it has affected our sex life because i am no longer sexually attracted to her.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-988962265617663341.post-11981605285083153672008-02-04T14:50:00.000-05:002008-02-04T14:50:00.000-05:00A little background: I have been married and divo...A little background: I have been married and divorced twice and am currently in a relationship with another man for going on 2 years. In both of my marriages, I was permitted to "play" (kiss, fondle, and in some cases much more) with other females but in the relationship I am currently in, I am forbidden. I accepted this restriction and haven't done anything behind his back since we've been together.<BR/><BR/>My secret: I am not sure if I can just give it up like that and stay in this relationship. I like women and am attracted to women...much more so than men. Truthfully, I've wondered if that may be part of the reason why I've never done very well in the relationship department.<BR/><BR/>Another secret: I follow probably 15 lesbian mommy blogs.<BR/><BR/>And one last secret: I have an online lesbian friend I am attracted too and would probably consider seeing her if we weren't seperated by 3 states!Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-988962265617663341.post-5337916904139013992008-02-04T13:57:00.000-05:002008-02-04T13:57:00.000-05:00my partner and I had an intimate relationship with...my partner and I had an intimate relationship with another woman that lasted over 2 months. She had just broken up with her partner and needed some physical comforting (they hadn't had sex since before their toddler was concieved). My partner and I ended the relationship when we realized that we were both getting too attached to the other woman and thinking about some sort of poly relationship. She was only looking for sex from us and it started hurting too much.<BR/><BR/>I still miss her. And I haven't felt that sexy in years.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-988962265617663341.post-41527599472011118662008-02-04T10:48:00.000-05:002008-02-04T10:48:00.000-05:00I love that me and my wife are attractive, feminin...I love that me and my wife are attractive, feminine lesbian moms. I know it's mean, but when I look at the blogs of unattractive or really masculine two-mom families, I feel bad for the kids. I'm sure they are good moms, but I still can't help myself.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-988962265617663341.post-65591927342745561702008-02-02T11:18:00.000-05:002008-02-02T11:18:00.000-05:00My secret is that I can't read blogs about people ...My secret is that I can't read blogs about people who are TTC. I can see how people get incredible support from having their TTC journey documented. But as a person trying to TTC, it is so painful to live through my own journey. Reading about others seems to make me more afraid that this will never happen.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-988962265617663341.post-91138584666123610602008-02-01T22:11:00.000-05:002008-02-01T22:11:00.000-05:00When my friends get pregnant I don't feel happy fo...When my friends get pregnant I don't feel happy for them, I just think that it should have been me. I usually stop hanging out with them or reading their blog.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-988962265617663341.post-20917591416606496322008-02-01T21:59:00.000-05:002008-02-01T21:59:00.000-05:00I am truly madly deeply in love with my wife (we'r...I am truly madly deeply in love with my wife (we're both women)and know I want to spend all my future years with her, and she feels exactly the same way about me. We have a great relationship with amazing sex that is even better than it was when we first got together years ago.<BR/><BR/>Partially this is because we have made a great effort at maintaining intimacy but.....the secret part is that we have another lover (also female) who shares our time and our bed with us. <BR/><BR/>It's actually a really healthy relationship but we don't tell many people because of negative pre-conceived notions about polyamourous relationships, because we don't want people to think that there is something wrong with our pre-existing marriage, and um, because one of us is a local famous gay.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-988962265617663341.post-91976925246865781822008-02-01T20:10:00.000-05:002008-02-01T20:10:00.000-05:00I fear that when my wife and I do have kids, she w...I fear that when my wife and I do have kids, she will be the mean mom. She is overly agressive with our pets (always yelling at them for things they really can't control, etc) and I fear that will carry over to our kid(s)Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-988962265617663341.post-44478444008110554932008-02-01T17:10:00.000-05:002008-02-01T17:10:00.000-05:00Wow I have posted five secrets i didn't know that ...Wow I have posted five secrets i didn't know that I had so many.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-988962265617663341.post-10431874124014888212008-02-01T17:07:00.000-05:002008-02-01T17:07:00.000-05:00Oh and did i mention that I read numerous lesbian ...Oh and did i mention that I read numerous lesbian mommy blogs? I also would be too afraid to reach out to a woman, and too embarrassed. So I have to resign myself that it will never happen. I feel a deep kindredness to lesbians, they fasinate me.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-988962265617663341.post-40256904793062458272008-02-01T17:05:00.001-05:002008-02-01T17:05:00.001-05:00I love reading these, this is my 3rd secret commen...I love reading these, this is my 3rd secret comment. I wish I knew who the binge eater is, because I just realized after 10+years that I am a binge eater.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-988962265617663341.post-37770478904367127802008-02-01T17:05:00.000-05:002008-02-01T17:05:00.000-05:00I am married and have been since i was in my twent...I am married and have been since i was in my twenties, so long ago. I have always since I can remember felt a huge attraction to woman. My husband knows this about me. I have never even kissed a woman, but I am dying to know what it feels like. I fear that it is too late, and that a woman wouldn't find me attractive enough. If anything ever happened to my husband, I would definetly seek out a woman to have a relationship with.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-988962265617663341.post-26083163761752457692008-02-01T14:59:00.000-05:002008-02-01T14:59:00.000-05:00I have a few secrets, but one of them is that I ho...I have a few secrets, but one of them is that I honestly believe that I am smarter than most people. If it makes me seem any more likable, I will also add that I don't think I am as attractive as most people. I guess I'm a curious mix of self-doubt and intellectual snobbery.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-988962265617663341.post-50532779410044898682008-02-01T13:29:00.000-05:002008-02-01T13:29:00.000-05:00I am terrified that my best friend will get pregna...I am terrified that my best friend will get pregnant before me. I mean, I know it will happen that way (I have major fertility issues), but I am scared that I will be so bitter and jealous. The funny things are that I have a child already, I don't think she and her partner are going to work well together as parents, and I really don't feel a need to rush to get pregnant. It just gets to be a race even when I don't want it to. Fuck, infertility sucks.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-988962265617663341.post-8232634570467584282008-02-01T13:26:00.000-05:002008-02-01T13:26:00.000-05:00I am straight and married but I love reading blogs...I am straight and married but I love reading blogs about lesbian mothers. I currently read 4 every day while at work. I don't read them on the weekends at home for fear that my husband will see.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-988962265617663341.post-83968089359019306022008-02-01T11:30:00.000-05:002008-02-01T11:30:00.000-05:00I am a closet binge eater and don't know how to st...I am a closet binge eater and don't know how to stop. I need help.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-988962265617663341.post-77693676334201975122008-02-01T09:17:00.001-05:002008-02-01T09:17:00.001-05:00I hate my best friends husband. At a low point, he...I hate my best friends husband. At a low point, he took advantage of me and my mental state. It was years ago but I still can't look him in the face. Even now, he tries to get me to do things with him (flash him, give him a BJ). I haven't, but it doesn't stop him from trying. He looks at me and it scares me. He makes comments when I call her house and he answers the phone and she is not there. I want to tell her. But I can't. I don't want to hurt her.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-988962265617663341.post-91004910600877413032008-02-01T09:17:00.000-05:002008-02-01T09:17:00.000-05:00I hate my best friends husband. At a low point, he...I hate my best friends husband. At a low point, he took advantage of me and my mental state. It was years ago but I still can't look him in the face. Even now, he tries to get me to do things with him (flash him, give him a BJ). I haven't, but it doesn't stop him from trying. He looks at me and it scares me. He makes comments when I call her house and he answers the phone and she is not there. I want to tell her. But I can't. I don't want to hurt her.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-988962265617663341.post-11658082276800738092008-02-01T02:55:00.000-05:002008-02-01T02:55:00.000-05:00My father molested me. The only person who knows i...My father molested me. The only person who knows is my husband and obviously my father . My parents are still together and we always do things together. I feel bad because my husband has to pretend that no one is the wiser when we do family activities.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-988962265617663341.post-25901661018226492312008-02-01T02:28:00.000-05:002008-02-01T02:28:00.000-05:00One of my closest friends is pregnant AND getting ...One of my closest friends is pregnant AND getting married in two weeks. I am so jealous I can't be happy for her. I am constantly dreaming about not having to go to the wedding...Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-988962265617663341.post-86178088378238582632008-02-01T02:18:00.000-05:002008-02-01T02:18:00.000-05:00My husband is over weight and grosses me out. His ...My husband is over weight and grosses me out. His hygiene is poor too. I feel like I always have to nag him to bathe. I am obsessed with bossing him around about his hygiene. Why dont you go take a shower etc. He constantly smells like ass because he is so over weight.Like I said i am obsessed with it. If I was severly over weight, I would be so anal about my hygiene. It has affected all aspects of our relationship.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com